Afraid of love

I like this song, eventually it build the feeling inside me. Can you even find the word for it, when sometimes when you are trying to explain something or certain words, it just seem so hard and never the way to show it.
I had those moments, and so to speak, it's still happening.

And I talked to a married husband over the dinner today, and there are a group of us enjoying the atmosphere where we were dining, he was talking to me about his experience and what he had seen over his life, and the life that he has been through is so much tougher than what I have been through, eventually his life story is about life and death. He has seen the real world beneath his control and what he could do is so much beyond his reach. He have to struggle for his life until a point that he have to write a letter to his mother while he is in a hospital, lying on the bed writing that he is going to end his life by pulling the tube. The reason he wrote that letter is to let his mum know that by having that decision made was NOT to blame her.

He has gone through a tough life, he also mention in his letter that, he is not afraid to die but afraid to live.

Who else is not afraid to die nowadays? in stead of afraid to live?

From here I've learn that, there's nothing that is impossible when you still have the courage to believe in God no matter under what circumstances or trial you are going through.

I have live my life till this stage, and I will make the best out of it, even though if I have lose pride and dignity, but I still have faith. Because only God can judge me.