Terribly sick

Pail face, watery red eyes, red running nose, and obviously my sexy voice that you can only hear when i'm in this kind of condition. You may not know me for my real voice, but, I'm still the same person inside. So, I'm saying is that, I'm not only physically sick, eventually i am also mentally sick..
You know, i don't wanna be the "evil witch" or what they call "snatcher","bitch","psycho", "brainless brain" , "Stupid Hore" or some sorts . I mean, i know that this is really unfair for everybody. It's like a TRIANGLE!! SERIOUSLY!! I could never thought of me doing it until today, now, this very moment, like exactly right now. I couldn't believe I'm that horrible person. I mean, how could I !! *sigh*

Please give me a sign. I really desperate to know what i should do. Options in my mind are:
1) Flip a coin
2) Don't bother at all*as if never happen*
3) Totally not gonna talk to him

:'( WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO!!!!