Something you expect

why something that you expect, and really have it in mind that it's like a perfect paradise.. but somehow turn out a bad one.. but you can't express it in anger but to endure.. it's true that it teaches you to do good in everything.. but people just being so cruel wanna ruin your days in this place.. as if like that's no place that you can go, but my excuse to stay and to endure is for the one person that i love.. you're doing this not to show off or something..
I don not understand why, but i can only doubt
I don not understand why, but i can just wonder
I don not understand why, but i can be ignorant
I don not understand why, but i can just don wanna ask you

you may have your ways
you may have your rules
you may have your opinion
you may have just to let me know that, "you're just being yourself"

I wanted to understand you
I wanted to hold you
there's a lot i wanted
but it just fated after what i saw

you want me to believe
you want me to understand
you want to know me
I'm sorry
I can't trust you anymore