dear diary

dear diary, today i had a little fight with my hubby.. i'm happy he called, but we end with a not so good smile.. blame me for ended up like this, cos he felt like i could never change.. the emotion thingy, the argue thingy, the voice thingy, the words thingy, the the the.... alot more thingy that i cannot do well. he ask me do i ever change, is it that i never change in his eyes? ooo, if i ask him right now straight , he will blow me up in pieces..



funny thing is, seems like i'm the "active pain" that gives everybody pain.. instead of being the painkiller that everybody would grab hold tightly,and the weird part is" he always ask me whether i could ever change for him." but everytime after i say i could, it will end up i don't know it has happened. and i will end up in a flood..i cried not because i like or it's a best way to gain forgiveness, it's because i'm sad i counldn't make everything works properly. "i know, try harder, " and i'm sad that i can't make you happier.