right or wrong?

sometimes it is better to be in a dreamland than in a mess(means reality).. people can believe for what you have done.. and misunderstood for what you have done..so, i guess better don't do anything at all and act dumb..

certain people just won't change for the better.. after all these years.. they still keep to the same habit.. as if my words that comes out from my mouth is just rubbish.. promises is a lie after all..

they think that they are the only person who is going through hard time.. but what about me??? i'm a human also,i'm not cold blooded.. i also have feelings..
in fact, u have no idea how i go through those hard time..and FYI, i went through it way before you do.. way back then... way back you haven't even started at all.. you have no idea when the 1st time i'm going through it silently.. and as for you during that time, you think it is fine.. you think you are okay.. you think you are doing good.. you think what ever you do, i;m fine with it.. but have you ever thought of my feelings?? you think it is easy?? you think it is fun that i want to make this such a big deal?? you think i wanted to??(owh~ i know what you thinking right now.. you think what ever i say is bullshit).. oh well, think whatever you want..

in your nice little mind right now, all you think that i'm the evil one who cause all this to happen.. and if i haven't start this.. everything will be fine.. but you have no idea how patient and calmly i persuaded myself not to have that kind of thinking and reaction.. till one day i can't take it anymore.. FYI, people have limits, but you are way over that limits..

and another one.. you sound like i;m the one who make you like a fool??? em.. hello... i didn't... neither i did something behind your back.. talking about being a fool.. i guess i;m the victim... do you know the feeling of awaiting?? the eagerness?? the promises ahead?? what if i tell you, there is NO SIGN AT ALL for all of it.. how would you feel..(haha.. i don't think you know how i felt, cause that never happen to you before)
let me give u a definition" waiting = torturing"... this "waiting" for this situation is far different than the normal one.. the normal "waiting" is that you wait and wait, then in the end you get what you waiting for... but for this situation, "waiting" is torturing... you wait for something that you longing for... the result is NONE.. ZERO.. KOSONG..(isn't that worse than a fool??? )

and as for behind your back, i don think i did anything wrong.. cause you know why??? i give up on one.. then i take up another one... fair enough.. i didn't take 2 at once at all..
oh... blaming me for not informing you?? let me see, i sms.. no reply.. i called.. u didn't pick up my phone.. (what does that suppose to mean??) FYI, you have no idea how long it takes to have that courage to msg n call you JUST to inform you.. n how much i wanna discuss about this.. and yea, i know what you thinking right now.. (nonsense)...okay(whatever).. and until one day, all of a sudden a msg from you.. how unusual!!!! and that time, you think i'm gonna blast everything out to you??? HELLO!! I NEED TO SEARCH FOR COURAGE AGAIN!! YOU THINK IT'S EASY!! YOU THINK YOU THE ONLY ONE FEELING HURT!!! I HAVE BEEN DROWN 6 FEET UNDER FOR SO LONG, AND YOU'RE JUST STARTED SINKING... HOW DARE YOU COME AND MAKE NOISE AND COMPARE WITH ME AND JUDGE ME?!

TWO FACE??? OWH~ YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT THAT ISSUE??? THAT IS NOT YOUR TURN TO BRING UP THAT MATTER TO ME.. IN FACT, YOU SHOULD CHECK ON YOUR
DOUBLE LIFE... WHICH IS SO SECRET..