I love art as much as I love poem

blindmedance by ~sheepairsupport on deviantART

From every angle I view, it just gave me the feeling of freedom. I'm a person who love freedom and freewill.
The sense of courage with mildness. Brave enough to break out it wings to find freedom. Flouting in the air, flow where ever the wind brings. With a senseless mind dancing with no direction.

I love art as much as I love poem. It just give me the taste of curiosity and the eagerness of its meaning. You can never tell that different angle tells a different story, and you can never know the exact meaning of one word or art that can signify almost anything.

OMG!!! another expression for the word 'Pissed'?

The day I travel like no other day, and been eating in the same cafe for the past 3 days, and yet didn't realize this hanging on the wall. When I saw it, I was like "@_@" OMG!!! Do I really know what it means or my English just got worst that i don't even know that there is another expression for the word 'Pissed'? 

What the Heck Man!! Pissed at Ming Cafe?? seriously?? Their food is Great, cheap, and tasty, but why is this word printed on a shirt and even hang on the wall nicely, with a nice frame nicely frame up!! Shockingly, not only 1 but there's another one hanging too!! So, 2 frame up shirts is hang on the wall with a curse. 

So, 2 frame up shirts is hanging on the wall with a cursing word.

Somehow, I just try to be humble for 1 second, or maybe 2 second, just in case my English just too lousy  to understand some ADVANCE English expression or terms. 

So, I decided to turn to my lovely friend whose English is way better than mine I guess (giggle) 

 

This is Tracy my lovely friend from Canada.

As I ask her to take a look, in just the next moment (facial expression change). She even ask, why they put it like that? Both of us just wondering is it that someone really angry at this cafe r something? It's just weird and odd, plus you wouldn't expect from a cafe like that which is like so popular in that town. 

Oh well, all I can end this is to have a mind of Confusion and at the same time, maybe people there just kinda  weird. hahahaha, I know, it't kinda bad for me to do that, seems like I'm cursing people. I ain't that kinda person. They are all nice people despise the language the people speak there, we might have the same language to speak, but the way we use it just a bit different.

Oh, in case you don't know, it's in Sarawak, Miri. 

Blame on YOU!!

Blame on YOU!! You started it!! and as this happen because of you.

confuse? okay, this is how it goes.

You use me like a tool

without thinking of hurting me

making me look like a fool

now your face is the one I don't wanna see

You think you are cool

I think you are worst than the worst

lock you up in the loo

drink the water in it when you thirst

You toss your body by the pool

you think you can fool the rest?

acting cool?

how i wish i can sue

so the world less mess

with you around

people could just simply get hurt

I want to protect me friends in my compound

so can you just back off you nasty pervert

and guess what, don't try to call me again

or hope for a call back

cause I couldn't care less for what you wanna say

all I want is you out of my friends list

Thanks you very much is all I'm grateful to say

don't blame me for hating you
in fact I hate you from the start after I knew
you asshole that I cannot forgive
Don't ever smile to me with your stupid face
seeing you make my day frown..

An empty void replaces what I feel

Till the ends of time I will still love you my friend
The amount of love that just like the sand
Knowing that you're gone leaves me a bend
Lonely candles light up as my lamp

An angle to me, you were so sweet and kind
Raising my sprits with ways I can not find

Over and over, again and again the days with you replayed
Loving you so much wished you would have stayed

I crossed a line which I know I'm not fit
The line that I know I cannot fix
Now each day I die a little bit
With heart that beats one to six

An empty void replaces what I feel
A heart that cannot be kill
Growing sadder and sadder, will I ever heal?
Or it will just be forever a hill

From the feeling of love I felt for a friend

Dream your dreams

Tiredness in me,
can't even leave my legs,
once I close my eyes,
I just float away.

Could you ever imagine,
me on my bed,
facing the ceiling,
with my eyes close,
thought that I might have a smile,
while I'm sleeping.

But in fact,
Scary part when i sleeping was,
I dreamt that you touch me,
Gosh..!!

the things that you are unaware of

Do you ever meet someone that they are so lovely in every way, and you don't even realize they are not being themselves, in fact they're trying to be someone that you want them to be, or they want you think that they are the person that you think of them. So, I mean, what's the point of knowing someone who ain't truly themselves?

I won't want to know people like that, faking is just so unreal to me. If you can come up with all sorts of excuse to just to cover something up, then why doubt what i would think of you in the first place.  Being your true self would be the most decent and yet complete honesty is the most wonderful thing that it could ever be.

In fact, wearing a mask is very uncomfortable, so, just be who you are.
because you might hurt someone whom you truly love, not only that, you might lose them either.
So, my advice, Don't wear a mask. Or should i say, STOP wearing a mask..

第一百个文章爱情烦恼。

在我的第一百个文章，我很想把我的所有写下来。

我很伤心，很难过，我不知道要因该怎么做才刚。我很不服气。这个世界正的是那么辛苦的活下去吗？爱情真的那么的辛苦吗？为什么一定要这样呢？

感觉真的很辛苦，很难受！
我有的选择不爱吗？这只是个暧昧的滋味，不是真的， 也不是假的。
如果有的选，我一定会放气。
我不管是谁要管我，只要这个心是数以我的，爱的人也是我的选择，所以如果有人要阻止我的看法，你们一定要给一个很有道理的理由，要不热别想要把我的看法改变。

因为这一切不是我想要得结果。也不是我的最后的打算。

虽然爱情是一个很完美的故事，却也是很伤人的故事。
每一个爱情是那么的痛苦，没有一个是完完美美的王国。

我知道你很在乎我，很关心我，很爱我，不顾一切的要给我幸福，但是这不我要的我要的爱情故事。也不是我说等待的一个爱的城堡。

就像我说的一样，“你要懂我，但是我是一个很难动的人“，难道你要等我一世吗？
我鼓励你最好不要再那么的辛苦地做对你没有好处，也没有意义的苦心，因为我只会对你的感觉只是个姐姐对待弟弟的感觉而已。我希望你能给你自己一个机会来看看这世界有那么的大，那么多的选择，那么多的完美故事，你才刚刚开始谈念爱， 我不想要把你的青春浪费在我的身上。

对不起， 我不能接受你。请你原谅我，我真的不是故意把你车变成这样。
对不起。
对不起。

I'll be okay

I believe what ever had happen or not, there's a reason for that.
You are not gonna change the history, and I'm not gonna allow that
please move on, cause i did
cause I'll be okay with everything that I'm going through right now.
I don't need another person or another thing to burden me
all I want is you to let me be

Can you even explain more deeper than just FRIENDS?

"FRIEND" What does this word mean? What does it actually mean? Can you even explain more deeper than just Friends? Or could it be more?

"Expect the unexpected" When you just don't expect this kinda things to happen, for some reason, it just happened and when it happen, you have no way of turning back. You wish to have the emergency STOP button for you to press, but somehow you just cannot stop it.

My Story: Once upon a time, you know a friend whom you have know him for quite a long time. We were friends, eventually just talking buddy that you can just say hi and bye and a few chit chatting that just to catch up with your friend. Then somehow, you guys became close after some hanging out, and your "friend" had the feeling that is more than "just a friend". But for you, you just have the feeling that he is just a normal nice friend that you like to hang out with and have fun with, nothing more than that.

So, what should you do when you found out that he likes you more than just a friend? Will you feel awkward after he told you? but that is not the important part. The most important part of this is,
What would you react to it when you know, and after knowing it, will you have a distance to him?
Or you continue to act normal like it never happen?
Is it cruel to ignore?
What can i do about it?
Avoid him is not the solution...
Do you think it's rational to be still friends with him as for he is still having that feeling for you?

I SS my self..

Well, i have nothing to do, so i end up taking my own pictures.. 

easy way of saying it, I SS lo.. hahaha

What are you trying to do?

Out of my feelings, out of my love, without a doubt I open up and let you in. This is the part I never think of doing it twice to even just to get to know you better. And yet, when I start to realize, after what I see, what I read, all i can believe it's just all lies!!

I do not know how am i gonna tell you how I am feeling right now, but I am broken, much broken. Compare on breaking up with my boyfriend, the feeling is quite crush and feeling dumb, an idiot. Especially it's all LIES!

Tell me, can I still believe you after what I saw with my own pure eyes? Do you think you can even explain that? I don't think so. You ask me not to wear a mask, but you are doing it instead.

My question to you: What are you trying to do?

Directions

I see myself on the platform, looking at all of these people who i don't know what they are thinking, what they are trying to achieve in their life. Looking at them seems so empty,  lost and mindless.

For me, i know what i want in my life, I don't want to be judge by anyone that i am totally no direction in life. If you ask me, what are my goals in life, right now this moment, I can say I don't really know yet. But I'm sure I am way more better than people who end up in the club, dancing on the dance floor, having fun in a different way.
So, I come up with a decision that I know I'm gonna walk on the path which less people walk, or should i say, WISE people walk on that path.

I'm gonna quit Clubbing from now on, even though I only been there twist in my whole life. But anyway, I don't thinking I'n gonna regret doing that, in fact, I think that is the wisest decision i ever made in my life. A step that I gonna skip for the benefit of my life. Because I believe, entertainment have many ways to enjoy, and eventually i believe and strongly accept my way of thinking for this step that I'm gonna do, is the best way for my life.

This is what we call, we change to the better, not to the worst, nor to the drastic major of a death road..